Hate.... a word long forgotten in this mind-dictionary of mine...

For the first time in years... I lost my ability to rationalize, to think straight, to look at things in every postive diection available to me....

It might be ment as a joke... but it brought back so many memories... good and bad ones.... bitersweet and grape-sour.... Its fun to play around with feelings once in a while... but getting too close... its hurts... alot.

I wiped it all away.. kept it inside a steel metal box and hid it somewhere inside my heart. And because you had to come too close.... the key unlocked itself...






In a long time since then... its back to haunt me..... This friend of mine.. called hate.